I have had pneumonia for the past couple of days and have felt too ill to do much of anything. Now that I am feeling a bit better let’s continue where we left off.
Day two of the writing challenge is: Write something that someone told you about yourself that you never forgot.
The comment that sticks out to me was from a newer friend of mine. We were getting ready to walk in a 5k and we were talking about having low self-esteem, and judging ourselves harshly. I had just said something to the effect of having serious issues with self-worth. This new friend said that was surprising to her because I seem so sure of who I am and so confident.
That struck me so funny, because I have always felt like I had so many hang ups and body issues, but I am also singularly my own person. I have a unique sense of style (see the title of this blog). I wear what I want, when I want, and accessorize in a way that makes me happy. I suppose in that way I am fairly confident, though if you asked me I would have told you that I am not confident at all. I definitely have self-esteem issues, but somehow I do not equate that with my wardrobe, or dancing in public, or singing at Karaoke, or belly dancing. I take zumba classes in the park. I rollerskate. I often do outrageous things in public. I have never equated any of these things with being confident or self-assured.
She really made me think though. I certainly feel like I could lose some weight, and sometimes I am down about that. However, This does not stop me from dressing like a crazy person. I love color, and black (I am a recovering goth). I love to wear outlandish, and fun things. I love to dress up. And, I am not afraid or ashamed to do that.
I think that I may be confident, but aware that I am not perfect. Hmm… not a bad place to be.